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Sup everybody who still comes around these parts!
For the last while I've been working with an incredibly talented cast of roleplayers on a podcast called Tales of Nowhere, a tabletop RPG where we take one cast of characters through multiple games and rulesets to tell one epic story. We just publicly released yesterday on iTunes, Google Play Music, Stitcher and others! Or you can stream the episodes directly from our website.
When I was first asked to join on and write some music, I was suuuuuper skeptical. But after 20 minutes, all doubts faded when I realized these people are FANTASTIC entertainers. I promise I wouldn't be plugging this if I didn't believe it was worth your time. Because it absolutely is.
My role in the podcast is to provide Audio Engineering stuff and some background music. The team and I would be beyond appreciative if you could give us some time to win you over.
I've put out two of the character themes I made (Hondo and Thane) and should be following up with more if I have the time to get some done.
Either way, you're awesome and you should feel awesome.Thanks for your time!
Here's another update video thingy and some more music. Yaaay not being completely, entirely antisocial!
Hey Newgrounders and other folks as well!
I decided I need to break away from the negativity of my last post and do something productive. Have you heard the new Doom song I recently put up? I worked my shit really trying to make it sound good, so I hope SOMEBODY liked it :D
I ended up posting a video showing which parts are from which levels etc etc, check that out if you'd like:
In other me-related news: I'm in a band, need a job, broke my recording equipment (which is why the doom song was posted as a WiP), am undergoing psychiatric care for mental instability issues and also just lost my car! I also have basically zero dollars to my name and may have to move in with my racist grandmother soon!
Maybe all that doesn't sound like "Good News" but hey, it's better than crying into an online forum about how sad everything is because, like it or not: That's motherfucking life. And you either roll with and deal with it orrrrrr you get bowled over and super mega depressed. Which is a place I know all too well and am eager to steer clear of.
If you're in the mood for other video game cover-y tracks I've done check these out:
Nephalem (Diablo) 
That 1 Pokemon Song (Pokemon Series) 
Mortal Kombat Character Select (Mortal Kombat 3? I think??) 
Falling (Zelda Gerudo Valley Cover) 
In the future I want to do some "Let's play" sort of stuff, but am unsure of exactly how, when, where, or even whether I really want to do that or not.
Time will tell, but until then I'll just keep dicking around with my music!
Enjoy the rest of your day! And I actually mean that. Try something new, reach out to a friend. You're worth fucking more than you lead yourself to believe.
Alright, so this is going to be the first time in a while I've used this "News" thing to give some straight fucking talk*.
I'm actually basically just blogging, so if you know nothing about me, don't have a few minutes to burn or don't care, this is me telling you to go away because I don't actually want you here either. This is an awkward moment for us both. You don't want to be here now, and I don't want you here because I know you won't have a good time. Yes, I am actually trying to look out for you here. I care about your happiness, even if you don't. So save yourself the wasted time and bing something or go watch a Youtube video about turtles fucking or how about that latest pewdiepie video, omg... right?**
[Note To Self: watch pewdiepie at least one time so you know what that shit's all about]
To everybody else still here: Yay! At least one of you read up until this point! Five stars for you! No sarcasm, I'm actually being sincere here. It's just difficult to convey via text... Ask anybody who texts their significant other. And major disclaimer right here: I've definitely been drinking, so be prepared for tangents galore.
So, straight talk time. I'll be entirely honest, I don't ever see myself having much sway in terms of words or ideas. I want to make a difference in the world as I'm sure a lot of people feel, but I'm now ready to go to whatever lengths necessary to do so. My current problem is: nobody has ever taken musicians seriously, and although that's far from all I am, that's all anybody online knows me as. As a matter of fact, I'm not entirely sure if most of the fans I have on this website are still active or even alive.
I'm not saying this to discourage myself or to hurt anyone who does read this who would consider themselves a 'fan', because I love you dearly. I would be writing this to myself without you, I'm literally nothing if not for a guy with a very good group of supporters. I'm not attempting to seem pandering to an invisible audience of an unknown amount. I'm being honest here when I say: I think it would have been a better decision to make a Youtube channel if I wanted 'fans' or 'likes' or whatever. At first, viewcount and rating was the only thing I cared about. I wanted people to see my music, to know I exist. I wanted to make an impression, a fucking powerful one. I have to say, I haven't lived up to my expectations of what I can do.
As of yet, that is.
It's hard to say this, but any good online creator measures their worth via the feedback they receive. They don't want to, but when you open your works to the onslaught of the internet they are valued at the worth of itself compared against everything else anyone has ever seen online. Which at this point is fucking everything, so it's understandable why one would become discouraged from posting anything online.
Here's what I've learned about numbers: If you're into collecting fans, posting online is not the game for you.
When I look at the number of fans this page on Newgrounds has, it actually fills me with regret. Not that "It's not enough", or like "That's so puny", just... I feel an attachment to them. Each and every one of them, but I feel like I've let a very large portion of them down. If that's hard to understand, let me try to explain through a few of the things I've learned via my history as not only a newgroundser, but a citizen of the global unification of ideas known as the Internet***.
So, here we go, some drunken sage ass knowledge gained from experience for you:
DO NOT ATTEMPT TO SELL YOUR MUSIC WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING
You look like a fucking idiot in front of everyone, and you turn into that guy nobody likes whoring out their own shitty music. You also end up pricing your albums at ridiculous amounts and get basically ZERO of the royalties depending on how much you front to attempt to make money.
In regards to the way I did my music selling: I'm sorry. To everyone. It was a collaboration between myself and my father to try and get something up and running, but a one-man not even live band is a hard sell. Even if I was famous and/or extremely talented. The prices were not set by me, and I regret even signing up for the service I did with how it turned out. If I let you down with this process, you're not alone. I let myself down, and that was one of the driving factors of me not wanting to keep writing music or posting online.
DO NOT MAKE EMPTY/UNKEEPABLE/DISHONEST PROMISES OR CONTINUOUS WHITE LIES
I have done this time and time again with friends, family, strangers, everyone. It's something I did in my life, and something I carried with me into my internet life. And if there was one place I didn't actually want to be a flake, it was where I was posting my music. Because, whether you're aware or not, word travels fast. And people know people who know people who know other people, and that's the only way things every have gotten done among our species: Networking. Social motherfucking networking[***^1].
Digress mode: I feel like I let a lot of people down. And I'm sick and tired of that feeling, in my actual reality life and in my online one. I'm not going to promise people things I can't actually do, I'm not going to commit to something then drop out, and I'm most CERTAINLY not going to hype things that aren't already finished. You know what taught me that? Dean Hall and DayZ. But also this here website and the way I dealt with my music.
I made more friends on this website than I did in real life (maybe untrue, I don't have the actual statistics for that), and I know for a fact the direction my life has taken was actually altered by my experiences here on Newgrounds. And so now I'd like to take a moment to apologize to anyone that is reading this that I personally let down. I am actually deeply sorry for giving you a false promise or whatever it was that I did that was so shitty. I'm actively attempting to be a better person at this point in time and that is my only goal in life as of now.
Equally important, and only in hindsight have I learned this:
WHEN YOU SEE AN OPPORTUNITY, TAKE THAT SHIT
Even if it gets you in trouble, even if it gets you fucking killed... If you see an opportunity to do something that seems right to you, you do it. You take it and run with absolute manic fervor. If you're doing something that feels right, nothing can stop you. Unless it's like the cops or whatever, but even then they're just people too.
Over the last 5 years, I've actually had quite a few opportunities that I've allowed to pass me by. Either I was tooling around as a college kid doing drugs, dealing with stress and depression in the worst conceivable ways, or being just a burnout in general. I'm kicking myself for so many different times in my life I could have made better decisions but didn't take the time to consider all my options.
The hardest part is seeing those opportunities for what they are. People on this planet must take your chances. Life is a fucking game, and we all play it whether we like it or not. Some of us realize this and opt out. Others of us realize this and take advantage of how it's played. Most have no idea at all but continue playing unhindered.
Regardless, we've all been playing with the hand we've been dealt along with everything else we've gained or lost throughout our lives. Play with the cards you can until you have nothing left. It's always worth it. You put the whole of yourself into something, and even if it fails you can still look back on what you've accomplished in the creation process and be proud of the things you've done. Unless you're placing all of your eggs in the 'victory' basket, in which case you have a different issue altogether.
What my point is on this bit is this: When a dragon walks into your house, you don't want to spend the next 15 years in therapy over it killing your parents and you hiding in the basement. Trust me when I say this: You want to fight that dragon. Because if you die, you'll die a hero instead of living a coward. Even if everything inside of you cries against it, you must take control of the one thing you can truly control: yourself. You can manipulate others and physically bind someone, but the only thing one human can control is themselves and their constructs. Even then, some people create so much it becomes beyond their capacity to control and it overtakes them, thrusting them into a gauntlet of situations they never imagined.
TO MAYBE BE CONTINUED
*: This link made me laugh harder than anything else I have ever done in my life. I know I could have probably done better, but goddamn shit, that fucking made my night/morning/whatever the fuck 6am is when you haven't slept. I think it's still technically morning, actually.
**: This was sarcasm. I also don't actually like the other guy I linked more than Pewdiepie, so don't start a fucking flame war over that shit. It was a joke, like George Bush being elected twice in a row, or my plans for the future: a horrible goddamn joke.
***:Interwebz for anyone under 12, which if you are, GET THE FUCK OFF MY PAGE THIS AIN'T NO FUCKING PLACE FOR FUCKING CHILDREN AND GET OFF MY LAWN
***^1: It wasn't an invention when the internet came out. Human beings have a social structure, just like every other fucking species of animal on this planet (or nearly, some animals are weird, man) and the word "network"? Google that shit. Not the techie nerd geek fucking definition (no offense fellow packet watchers, I'm actually one of you <3) the ENGLISH definition. The one that doesn't involve wires and electricity. Yeah, it's always been a thing. So that whole "Degree in social networking" was actually a degree years before they had the internet. It was called Social Sciences, and... goddammit, how the fuck do I remember this shit and yet people just a few years younger than me seem to be from an ENTIRELY DIFFERENT PLANET SOMETIMES?! Who is Bill Clinton, are you shitting me Teenager I met at Wendy's?! WHO THE FUCK IS BILL CLINTON, WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU SON? WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU!@?!?
- editors note: at this point I realized I was far too drunk to continue making logical sense and have therefore settled on the wise decision to quit while I was at the finish line.
I'm doing something different, something else.
If you're still listening, I'm still writing.
If you're feeling generous and willing to help me continue writing, you can donate by buying one of my old songs off iTunes, Amazon, or even just stream me on spotify. If you're really interested in making this thing come true, tell your friends who like metal that something new is coming.
I realized that taking my old songs off this site was a mistake, so I will be bringing back all the old songs I can. This includes many things I had taken off without most people noticing :P However, as a result of my now selling some of my pieces of music for money in the hopes to continue, I will be removing those songs for download from Newgrounds.
I will be doing this in 7 days, so if you don't want to have to pay for 'em, go download them now :)
EDIT: Done and done, I'll still be dropping stuff here and there and everywhere until I sell my guitar for new carpet, shag is the tits.
***EDIT 3/17/14*** Hey everyone! I've decided to continue posting on Newgrounds. It's really no extra effort at all, and I'm strangely fond of this weird little community :) HOWEVER, I have decided I'm going to be doing some housecleaning. Which means I'm getting rid of a BUNCH of my older songs in the near future. So if there's anything lurking on here that you want to go back and grab while it's up, now's the time!!! ********
To start things off anew, I'm going to try and write a new song for every day this month. It's been a long time since I've written and posted a large number of pieces, so I feel like I'm being a shitty person for not contributing for anyone else's benefit.
Just so you're aware, not every song is going to be completely finished.
You know how people who handcraft furniture for a living? And they put MASSIVE amounts of detail (Or what they think is a massive amount of detail) into their works, but pretty much nobody notices/cares? Yeah, that's what I like to do. And, because of that, I have a really hard time putting a lid on music that I write and just saying "Alright, enough is enough. It's done. This is ready for the universe,".
But I will try as hard as I can to write a full, beginning-to-end song every day this month.
September 1st: Universal Immolation
September 2nd: Projectile Cats~!
September 3rd: Rocky Finesse
September 4th: I Have Advanced
September 5th: Reprimand, And Let It Go
September 6th: I RENOUNCE MY FAITH IN THE DESIRE OF AMBITION
September 12th: BusMode!
September 15th: Mark of Nefertem
September 16th: PUZZLE
September 21st: Run Amok!
September 23rd: ZraedkynVolt
Wish me luck, and I hope you enjoy!
 Unbirth The World
 The Weredragon
 Dragons Are Better Than Unicorns
 Falling (Zelda Gerudo Valley Cover)
 Combustion Dynasty
 Pokemon G/S Lance Battle Remaster
 Conclusion Omega
 Carol of 10,000 Hells
 That 1 Pokemon Song
 Love Burns
 Thunderous Exodus
 Into The Unknown
 Riptide, Unfinished
 [XD]DJ4nika13 -Combustion_Dynasty_RMXXX[fku]
 This Random Fucking Chiptune Thing
 Psychosis Pt.2
 Power Rangers ULTIMATE POWERRRR
 An So... Our Story Ends
 I Am Defeted
 Zelda Cover, Unfinished
 Sonic - Breaking 7he Barrier
 Violet Poison
 All I've Got Left (Is this Micro[phone])
 A Punk Deathmetal Song.
If I get around to it, I'll include a few notes on each song like specific genre, background and random details.
I'm done with you, Sony Acid. I done trying to salvage what we had. I have lost well over 500+ hours to your absolute SHIT coding. I don't need you. I write the music, you just organize it. And when your organization skills start to resemble those of a schizophrenic hedgehog? When you crash endlessly and repeatedly, ruining all motivation to continue writing music?
And I mean this literally, I'm going to put your DVD in a box and set it on fucking fire and take pictures of it and masturbate* to those pictures for centuries to come. (hahaha double entendre :P)
Until I find another program I can use that will be as reliable as Acid was when I first started using it, I will no longer be releasing songs. BUT, and trust me on this,:
*This is a gross exaggeration. I'm not going to live for centuries.
I think what I'm going to end up doing with my album is releasing it song-by-song instead of one huge chunk. That way people can actually enjoy the shit I've spent so much damn time on.
Everyone has waited long enough, and I've slaved over the same damn minuscule details long enough.
Also: Here's the album cover. Cause you know that shit is legit when it's got an album cover.
(Why did I spell out "Seven"? Because that's how you say it phonetically anyway so FUCK YEAH BURN SEVEN!)